Dear brothers and sisters in Dharma,

Some time ago I have decided to be Buddhist, so now I am investigating various Buddhist schools and has become very interested when quita accidentally I came opon your www site.

I must note, that in oder to join a real Buddhist community, my choices are very limited, since in Lithuania, Vilnius where I live there are only two Buddhist congregation - one is Kagyu Diamond Way Buddhism of Lama Ole Nydahl and another congregation active in Lithuania is Kwan Um school of the Korean Zen Master Seung Sahn. I have not yet taken personal contacts with any of them, but probably I will do this in the next future.

I think that different schools(including those not Buddhist) are here for the persons of different capabilities and basic experiences. Eg. a person who does not feel "fallen sinner" could hardly be Christian, while a person who does not feel "foolish person" can not surrender himself to Buddha Amida, a person who has more limited intelectual capabilities would hardly understand the teachings of Kegon/Huayen etc. So I am wondering now what school or sect could be the best suited for me. I am rather introvert, I have no inferiority complex, I do not like too much physical effort, I like to be independent, I conceive things more philosophically than intuitivelly. Because of that I think that Amidaism would not be very suitable to me because I think that being introvert, liking to be independent and not able to feel one's inferiority I could not sincerely submit to the other-power of Buddha Amida. Tibetan tantric Buddhism which probably requires considerable physical exertion probably would also not the best option for me. And since I am not very intuitive, koans of Zen could be also may prove difficult for me. Maybe the best suitable for me would be Kegon/Huayen. Earlier I thought that Huayen does not exist as independent school nowadays, but now its seems I has been mistaken.

As Huayen as much every version of Buddhism is not just philosophy I am very interested to know which methods of meditation do you employ. Also I would like to ask, whether in your opinion it is possible to practice Buddhist meditation alone, without a congregation?

Also, I have found Chinese lectures on your site very useful. I cannot yet understand Chinese, but it would be a very useful ressourse for learning it.